Testimony from "Betrothed"

  • Anita Cruywagen
  • Oct 5, 2009

    My testimony about the Betrothed Conference.


    For many years I suffered from depression – on and off medication; trying in vain to keep my thoughts and self-talk positive.  I had been praying to God to heal me for quite some time ... something inside was broken and clearly needed fixing!
    Then about two months ago at a prayer meeting Heinz prayed against depression, and I felt it was for me. At first I felt no different, but I kept reminding myself and God that I was healed.


    The possibility of a new work venture came along, which I was very excited about. I kept expecting the old black cloud to come back and smother the joy, like it used to, but it never did. Once again I had to keep telling myself that it was not going to, because I was healed.


    But back to the real gist of my testimony: I wasn’t going to attend the Betrothed Conference (because of a lack of finances) until a generous friend and fellow “homie” (home group member) sponsored me. So many things Kath Rainbow said hit home. She talked about our thoughts running in pathways in our minds, and how we needed to make new ones for them in order to renew our minds and think new thoughts. She also shared on how we often think we’re not good enough, but that when God made us (women), he looked at creation and said it was VERY GOOD! We had to say it over and over, “I am VERY GOOD!” For the first time in my life it went into my heart and I believed it.


    On the Saturday of the conference there was an art exhibition by some artists in church, and one of my old thought patterns popped up: “Why wasn’t I asked to do a painting as well?” Immediately I recognised it for what it was and rejected the thought. I had felt inferior. But I remembered what we had been taught the day before: “I am VERY GOOD,” because God had made me VERY GOOD. I also realised that I wouldn’t have been able to do a painting anyway, had I been asked, because I was in such a bad place in my life.


    I am so grateful to our magnificent Lord God for healing me, and for the blessing of the Betrothed Conference. Thank you, Kath, for every word you faithfully conveyed. The truths you spoke hit their mark!


    Anita Cruywagen